Carole,
Your description was magnificent. and all too familiar.
i would like to add the the following;
A conviction that your death would be a gift to your family Believing
that death ts the only way your spouse will enjoy any remaining
lifetime,
it's up to you to set him free.
you have nothing of value for your children they would be better
off without you
death will be easier for your loved ones to accept than watching
you become useless
cd is like a dense fog coming off the water. You have no control over
when it comes; how thick it will be( or when it will vanish.. Nor can
you predict what will trigger it. In a really dense fog you cannot see
your hand in front of your face, you easily lose your bearings, all that
exists for you is the fog and it's dampness permeates your soul.
Cathy
arole Hercun wrote:
> Hi Audrey: I think you are very eloquent all by yourself.
> Here's my definition of Clinical Depression:
> Finding yourself descending ever deeper into your own
> personal 9 Circles of Hell
> Food that tastes like ashes in your mouth
> Looking at the family you love gathered around the
> Christmas tree on Christmas morning and feeling...nothing
> Lying in bed thinking you must be dying because you feel so
> bad but not caring
> Losing your laughter
> Not feeling capable of doing the work you love
> Being afraid all the time
> Counting the days, hours, minutes, seconds that the
> psychiatrist said it would take for the anti-depressant to
> kick in...
> Carole
>
> --- Audrey <[log in to unmask]> wrote:
> > Only someone who has not had cd would suggest that one
> > who had it should *
> > stay busy*as a help..If it is about motivation that is a
> > foreign term while
> > in the dark place we all know who are cd. I get upset
> > when I was advised to
> > stay busy as if I didn't know that it made sense once,
> > but no longer did in
> > the worst hours. None of us choose to be cd and can only
> > expect to have our
> > moods more even with less deep dips in the road. I
> > appreciate the kind
> > advice in the spirit it is offered, yet all who say this
> > are not helpful no
> > matter how well meaning. Maybe someone else who has cd
> > has a better
> > description of the darkness and the fear and despair that
> > is within it than
> > I have. It needs to be posted for all to see and heed.
> >
> > *Seattle* Audrey friend of pwp aussie John 49/42/38 ?
> >
> >
> > ----- Original Message -----
> > From: " janet paterson" <[log in to unmask]>
> > To: <[log in to unmask]>
> > Sent: Tuesday, May 09, 2000 8:32 AM
> > Subject: Re: depression /cd / bootstraps
> >
> >
> > > At 02:00 PM 2000/05/09 +0100, "Sinead Aungier
> > <[log in to unmask]>"
> > wrote:
> > > >The best cure for depression is to be busy because
> > when you're busy
> > you're
> > > >not thinking about how you feel. But also don't
> > overdo things or you'll
> > > >tire yourself out. I'd also recommend eating well and
> > getting plenty of
> > > >vitamin C and not letting your body overheat
> > especially at night.
> > >
> > >
> > > if this is advice for those suffering clinical
> > depression [cd]
> > > i'm afraid it's not very good advice
> > >
> > > dr. david burns describes the single most debilitating
> > symptom of cd
> > > as 'the paralysis of will' - 'keeping busy' just aint
> > in the picture
> > >
> > > a friend also told me that
> > > the reason people with cd walk around with their heads
> > hanging down is
> > > they are looking for those 'bootstraps' they are
> > supposed to 'pull
> > themselves up' with
> > >
> > > a little education goes a long way
> > >
> > > janet
> > >
> > > janet paterson
> > > 53 now / 41 dx / 37 onset
> > > 613 256 8340 / PO Box 171 Almonte Ontario K0A 1A0
> > Canada
> > > come visit my website "a new voice" at:
> > > http://www.geocities.com/janet313/
> > >
>
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