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barb one of the enormously helpful things about this site is the ability to air one's concerns with fellow travellers to get a sympathetic and insightful respose when one is afraid or unsure to clear up anomolies or fears or other worries in this context is brilliant judy >From: Barb_MSN <[log in to unmask]> >Reply-To: Parkinson's Information Exchange Network ><[log in to unmask]> >To: [log in to unmask] >Subject: Re: hiding awareness? >Date: Tue, 30 May 2000 11:44:17 -0700 > >Janet... > >I feel you're on point, with the exception of the 'fizzles and >fogs and is gone." > >I see that issues when finally addressed DON'T fizzles and fog" >and then somehow disappear from our consciousness, never or at >least rarely to be heard from again. > >Rather, I believe once acknowledged, once aired., issues become >much EASIER to address and therefore can be and ARE recalled with >little of the original intense pain and passion. Therefore we're >more at peace when we touch upon an issues that once caused the >pit of our stomach to be knot at the very thought of them don't >feel the.. > >Since the threat of emotional pain has been reduced to a >manageable limit >by it's repeated exposure, it becomes something that is almost >SAFE to deal with because we know it so intimately. > >Barb Mallut >[log in to unmask] > > > >-----Original Message----- >From: janet paterson <[log in to unmask]> >To: [log in to unmask] <[log in to unmask]> >Date: Tuesday, May 30, 2000 9:39 AM >Subject: hiding awareness? > > > >hi all > > > >applying some of the benefit of 20-20 hindsight > >it seems to me > >that our current problems with 'awareness' of pd > >on all sorts of levels > >work medical home self > >have some pretty strong roots in the concept of 'hiding' pd > >on all sorts of levels > >work medical home self > >not the least of which > >might be part and parcel > >of personal acknowledgment and acceptance > >of a profound change in our individual physical health > >not > >a matter of giving in and rolling over and playing dead > >but > >a matter of acknowledging and grieving the perceived losses > >and then moving forward with it all > > > >in terms of my work identity > >i thought the very worst thing that could happen to me was to > >'go bankrupt' > >but that turned out to be the right thing to do > > > >in terms of my youthful exuberance > >i thought that the very worst thing that could happen to me was >to > >'have an illegitimate child' > >but that turned out to be a joy > > > >in terms of my physical health > >i thought that the very worst thing that could happen to me was >to > >'lose my independence' > >i'm still working on this one, but the illusions are fading here >too > > > >hiding anything out of perceived fear shame embarassment > >only allows it to fester and strengthen > >in the dark > > > >brought out into the light of day > >[sometimes kicking and screaming, granted] > >it fizzles and fogs > >and is gone > > > > > >janet > > > >janet paterson > >53 now / 41 dx / 37 onset > >613 256 8340 / PO Box 171 Almonte Ontario K0A 1A0 Canada > >visit my website "a new voice" at: >http://www.geocities.com/janet313/ ________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com