David Sounds similar to my experience, though I don't often slip back into the acute down feelings I experienced before, and for some months after, diagnosis. I find if I am not mentally occupied with something outward bound (for want of a better term), depression comes back. Medication is vital for many of us. I have taken St. John's Wort for a year, and Requip for 9 months. I'm sure one or both of these have also played a large part in coming out of depression as, now that I am out, I notice mood swings which don't seem tied to any situation or stream of thought----I just feel "down." Last night I couldn't help noticing I was staggering around the house and had to touch walls a few times. This morning is a new now, however, and I've given my last thought to the me that lived before, as experience has shown the quickest way back to depression is to compare today's me with last year's me. Love Chuck