hi all here is some more cross-pollination communication from the bulletin board at the park place dot com, paige bremer's website (which is carrying on under the leadership of paige's cyber-sis stephanie) janet ------------------------------------------------------------------ Posted by Ray on August 04, 19100 at 21:39:13: In Reply to: janet's rants on clinical depression (cd) and suicide posted by janet paterson on August 02, 19100 at 00:19:26: >i am a member of the 'big' pd mailing list >and participated in cyber-discussions about >the pan forum and the glad and sad news presented >there. the news about paige broke my heart and >produced the following bits of 'rants' of mine >in the subsequent ciyber-discussions. >for whatever it may be worth, >all of my messages to the pd list >are on the wwweb at my wwwebsite >"http://www.geocities.com/janet313/" >we are all cyber-siblings when it comes to pd >and that goes double for cd >with love >janet > ... ------------------------------------------------------------------ Right on, janet your rantings are the onlyh thing that makes sense out of all these cautiously worded postings. Kind of remionds of when aunt betty was sick and l,ay there dying and nobody would mention the "C" word. have been thru a couple of bouts of cd. oddly enough, the worst one lasted about 2 mos. after my bilateral DBS operation. my mindbreakers came earlier in the form of hallucinations, paranoia and dangerous psychosis. ThaNKS to my wife, i made it back ok and my doctor who immediately took me oFF THE CUJLPRIT -- PERMAX. My aunt hads the same mediicine and she hallucinatgred that she was giving birth to a kangaroo. THat sounded more pleasurable to me. Anyway, i mhave been working on the perception theory since 1995 and it is in the.o form of a 'only one more chapter to go' book called Shaking with Laughter. i am rantinng now. remember, if you get suicidal just stop AND SAY "NO I DON'T BELIEVE IN DEATH. PEACE "http://www.theparkplace.com/wboard/messages/313.html" janet paterson 53 now / 44 dx cd / 43 onset cd / 41 dx pd / 37 onset pd tel: 613 256 8340 url: "http://www.geocities.com/janet313/" email: "[log in to unmask]" smail: PO Box 171 Almonte Ontario K0A 1A0 Canada