Paul - I know that's not supposed to be funny, but it truly was. It's one of those things you laugh at with mixed emotions. I know you've heard me talk about my love, who is PWP and PWPSP. Sometimes we have to laugh to keep from crying. Sometimes when he gets up to go to the bathroom, his blood pressure drops and he has to just stand there leaning on the table until he "gets it together". Then he stumbles to the bathroom. By that time, all the other patrons probably think he's drunk. (he said he'd rather be drunk, although he doesn't even drink). The main thing is that you have to keep your good humour up and it seems as if you are. Best wishes. Jo Ann