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Thank you to all of you that wrote about loneliness. I have taken notice of all of the suggestions that have been made.I will try to get about more but there is always the fear of a block or freeze. My Wife knows what to do and we make no big thing of it. It is when strangers try to be helpful and pull me. I usually loose my balance completely and there is a fall. I would love to be able to go out on my own even if it just down to a flower shop. My wife loves flowers but if she is with me I cannot surprise her. It is the same with Birthdays or Wedding anniversaries there is no surprise any more. This little thing is for me a huge factor in my depressive phases. I do not swear as a rule but sometimes this Parkinson's makes me want to pull out all of the stops and use the Ancient Anglo Saxon words that have helped make the English language what it is. It is the tiny things that a healthy person does not think about, a card, posting a letter.Going to the local store to buy a bunch of grapes. I have to leave it all to the wife and as for sport or swimming; try finding a swim bath with the water at the right temperature and steps with rails going down into the water. Getting in is no problem I just fall in but after a couple of lengths of the baths I am exhausted and can not pull myself out of the swimming bath or pool. I had all of the helps built in when we took over the apartment, indoors it is not too bad but where are those long walks where I crawled around some of our mountains. The long cool beer after a foot march of say ten miles. All for fun, "no must," just the joy of living. So sorry to bother you all with my troubles when I know you all have the same problems or similar. God Bless you all Bern...............Peace