At 11:24 AM 10/9/00 -0400, you wrote: >ubject: non pd:A poem about my day > >Well said , I have been there many days. I find that when i eat cheese >products I can be off for up to three hours no matter how nuch meds I take. > >When the meds wear off > > > >First I feel uneasy > >like a hurricane is brewing off the horizon > >or that I know there is something wrong > >that I can't put my finger on > > > >then begins the game of Russian roulette > >what body part is going to quit working this time? > >Usually it's my right hand, which is the first betrayer, > >curling up, and strumming my shoulder > > > >but sometimes it's the right leg > >foot curling up and in > >legs bouncing around > >like fish on dry land > > > >I notice my right eye won't open > >and my mouth doesn't work > >mumbles come out instead of words > >and saliva builds up, > >to drool down my chin like I'm 1 or 100 > > > >as my body slowly freezes > >my mind comes alive > >screaming fight or flight warnings > >to a body whose forgotten survival instincts > >even older than consciousness > > > >as the mind yammers and stammers its warning > >the body goes quietly numb > >and I silently wonder > >how could I be so dumb > > > >after two years of this shit > >you would think I would learn > >take your meds on time > >or this is what you become > > > >but when the meds are working > >I feel so much like me > >not this shaking drooling idiot > >that's all the world can see > > > >and when I take the meds > >in 15 min, 30 tops > >the mask that hides the real me > >back in place does drop > > > >but sometimes I sit and wonder > >what part of my body has quit working > >that the meds hide from me > >and where will my mind go > >when the meds can no longer set me free > > > >bob armentrout copyright 2000 > >_________________________________________________________________________ > >Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com. > > > >Share information about yourself, create your own public profile at > >http://profiles.msn.com.