Dear sweet caring Sandy, How can anyone show more caring than you do already? It is as if you have some touch of magic in your words that moved me to tears. I do not know what to offer to youe that is very helpful when there seems to be so little that is a real solution to change the events in your life. I do not know your parents, but when you describe the love you and they share, maybe the love they have for you is their reward. Isn't it that all of us at some point wish to be able to care for our parents in their later years? But it isnt a perfect life is it ? It isnt fair, I know you think, for them to have their lives become a care provider's role. It certainly isn't at all what you fantisized your life would be like at 20, or 30, or even 40 when you dreamed about it while a child. I don't think that any truly loving parent relinquishes the little caring expressions that parents do no matter how old their child becomes. There are the years of caring that creates this type of loving expression and it does not necessarily change no matter that a parent ages does it? I believe that when necessity occurs the idea that they might later need care doesn't enter their minds. Maybe any fear for their child is not ignored, but lessened by anything that they can do to make their child's life as comfortable as possible. It doesn't take money to show the kind of love that I describe either, it is about time given willingly being the loving parents that they are Sandy. It is someone as you are Sandy, whose generous and kind heart is as big as the out-of-doors. And it is you who have parents who must feel fortunate to have the woman that you are today as their daughter. Wouldnt it be wonderful if all of us could be so lucky? Love and many hugs, *seattle* Audrey friend of pwp aussie John 49/42/38?