Dear Doug: I wish I had a solution for you. There are many very intelligent people on this list who might be able to give you some ideas. I certainly think you are heading in the right direction. Maybe you will find out what to do after you meet with these people. For now, I just want to "hold your hand" until someone on the list can contact you. I am caregiver for my 66 year old husband. The best help I have received has been right here on this network. Do you work for a large company with over 50 employees? Do they have family leave (FMLA)? Do you have a disability policy? Do you have any other financial resources? If you could afford to limit your income for a few months, you could probably get on SS disability. I would document everything that is happening to you daily in regards to your PD symptoms and how it affect your work and home life. I hope I am at least giving you some reason to continue seeking help. It's not easy. You need a lost of support from family, work, and friends. Laura Rogers in Texas. Doug Brown wrote: > I subscribed to this list looking for answers maybe to see > if anyone else is dealing with the same issues as I am. I have > been lurking for a while so if I may I would like to introduce > myself. My name is Doug Brown, 42 years old "birthday today" > I live in Wichita Kansas, marred to a wonderful loving lady Debby. > I have 4 children and 3 grand children. I have been diagnosed > with PD for 10 years. I am afraid and feel as though I am losing > control. I may be losing my job because of my illness. I am a > Computer Technician and have had several of my customers > complain that they no longer feel confident in my ability to support > them. One of them called and complained about my apparent DTs. > My employer has told me to take 3 weeks medical leave to get things > under control before I come back to work. I have been passing out > "not good when you drive 1000 miles a week" get confused easily > and forget important information. I have been freezing lately and have > fell a few times. I have lost 30 pounds in the last month and seem to > be in a deep depression. My children and my wife ask me why I am > upset and when I say I'm not they say that I always look like I am mad > or upset and that I never smile any more. I have talked with my Doc > about this and have started taking anti-depressants and made appt to > see mental heath consoler. Will see a new Neurologist next month but I > am afraid that I may lose my job before I get things under control. How > do I talk with my wife about this she is very supportive, but she seems > to tune out when ever I talk about Parkinson's I feel as though she is > afraid to face the fact that my PD has progressed to this point. We > have talked in the past "years ago" and she has said we will cross > that bridge when we come to it. Well I think we have reached that > bridge but we are both afraid to set foot on it. Any suggestions, > advise would be appreciated. > > Thanks > Doug