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hi all At 23:48 2001/02/28 -0600, Raymond Strand wrote, in part: >... i would like to interject here-- >if the agonsts are working... >it would seem that sinemet would work better. > >he is already taking dopamine agonists >substitutes for the real thing (dopamine) >is this too obvious? :-) ... it should be! i'm concerned about the quality of medical advice here >i have been diagnosed for a similar time and age, >and feel progression ... progression progresses nothing alive is static but then again no outcome which we may fear or desire is inevitable although our fear or desire may contribute to its development >on another track-- >to the heart of the matter >what is really bothering you-- >fear >? > >someone once said, >"we have nothing to fear, but fear itself"... yup my 'wisiwig' theory still stands; if we think the world is frightening we will see it as frightening and thus we will feel frightened and since we feel it, it must be real, no? >most of us have gone through that time of fear, >some of us may still live with it each day and can't shake it >the diagnosis >the time of progression faster than expected >losing >our friends contacts >our family difficulties >the thought of lieing in a nursing home >unable to move >intellectually still bright >but trapped >contemplating our mortality this sounds like self generated nightmares based on fearful anticipation rather than here and now reality we only have today why sour it with fearful thoughts which may or may not pan out? yes we are mortal are we just finding that out now? this is news? general and pervasive negative thinking is ... not to sound like i'm stuck in a rut or anything ... a prime sign of clinical depression (in which another prime sign, the paralysis of will, strikes me as more disabling than pd; been there done that) 'cd' i.e. clinical depression is a curable brain chemistry imbalance known as a mood disorder as compared to 'pd' parkinson's disease which is an incurable brain chemistry imbalance known as a movement disorder according to dr david burns author of 'feeling good' (and promoter of 'cognitive therapy' which is the only non-pharmaceutical therapy which has been proven effective in reversing cd) 'catastrophising' and 'awfulising' is a mode of thinking which is one of 10 clearly defined cognitive distortions which skew reality for anyone afflicted with cd 'pd' can scare us silly if we allow the nightmares to take over our vision or 'pd' can hone us into smarter more sensitive more compassionate humans if we allow the challenges to take over our vision theoretically, yes, it is our choice, but 'cd' can strip us of that conscious choice and numb and anaesthetise our challenges and our joys into hopelessness and then despair and then seemingly unending pain >religion and philosophy come to mind >somehow, you have to face your own inner demons >there is one life >that you are ultimately responsible for >and each day is a gift >find a way to >make the best of it >or live the nightmare i am learning that the fear is a fakery that the nightmare is an illusion that each day is a gift whether we allow ourselves to look at it or not it is still given and is still there awaiting our recognition >i wish you the best >ray >ps: >keep going wih this >answer some of janet's queries >knowledge and experience >are abundant on this list >just reach out absolutely! as i said to someone the other day the dynamic of shared communication is greater than the sum of our parts (yikes) aside from the odd images the metaphor may invoke, there is nothing better nothing stronger than that communication dynamic; it becomes communion like this janet janet paterson, an akinetic rigid subtype parkie 53 now / 44 dx cd / 43 onset cd / 41 dx pd / 37 onset pd TEL: 613 256 8340 SMAIL: PO Box 171 Almonte Ontario K0A 1A0 Canada EMAIL: [log in to unmask] URL: http://www.geocities.com/janet313/