Camilla, I am not Barbara or John or listowner and have no illusions that I can speak for either of them...... However, I am, and have been an active longstanding member of the Parkinsons list. I have Parkinsons.....it has progressed.....my life has changed......I still want the research......I was stressed by the WTC events during the past two weeks. But, there are times when I want also to be alone. I don't always have the strength or energy to support someone else (emotionally or physically). Other family members have faced challenges and the face of, the immediacy of our challenge with Parkinsons has changed over time. Part of this is acceptance, part of this is loss, part of this is reassessment of priorities. I use my answering machine more frequently to screen calls so that I may use my energy to complete my current task at hand. Friends may believe that I am ignoring them by not responding to their call. I believe that I am making a choice at that time ....they called me when they had time....I will return the call when I have time. Today, I am not answering the phone....my energy reserves are low, and my choice for the day is to prepare a new recipe for dinner for my husband. During the past two weeks I have not responded to email messages....because I chose to spend time with my sister. I will probably not respond to email or to phone messages during the next few weeks because the daughter/grandchildren, and my son will be visiting at various intervals. I have letters to write/answer........they too will wait in a pile on the desk. Becky had not written to me for 8 months....another month will not hopefully not cause her pain in not receiving a reply from me. I appreciate mail/messages/calls......but sometimes, I do not have the energy to respond....this may be the day I need to floss my teeth. For those without a physical challenge....that may seem to be a trite reply. For those of us with very limited stamina.....it may be the goal for the day. We do support each other in various ways on "the list"....and one of those ways is to respect the privacy and the energy of the individual. We each cry out for support, companionship, understanding in our time of need. We receive support back from our "list family" and our visual/audio friends....sometimes it is not what we searching for and hoping to receive......but in time those ties will be relaced. Some of us cry openly and want virtual hugs. Some of us weep in the darkness and want to be alone. Some of us are basking in the sunshine and taking a break from parkinsons so that we can find the rejuvenation to put our hand out again to others on the path. I hope that Barb P will eventually respond to you....and that we will all respect each other.....and that we will continue to thrive as a support group. Rita Weeks 57/12 ---------------------------------------------------------------------- To sign-off Parkinsn send a message to: mailto:[log in to unmask] In the body of the message put: signoff parkinsn