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I've recently joined this group for the same reason....my Dad casually mentioned a couple years ago why my uncle committed suicide awhile back. He told me his brother had PD & then very casually said he did too...He said it so casually that I really thought nothing of it.... The last 3 yrs he's been acting very odd talkin through his letters alot about suicide and murder..speaking in rhymes..He's 77 and lives 3 thousand miles away from me....When he visited last, he turned over backwards in our chair and jumped right up....he choked on some soup and then feel into the shower when he went to the bathroom....I thought he was possessed.....seriously.....he was actin so wierd like he was fighting the devil inside of him....... I have a severe genetic liver/lung disease and have been on 02 24 hrs a day...My disease was only diagnosed in my late 30's....So many years I've wished that my father would show some compassion but instead he treats my disease as it its lepracy.....He's always taught my sister, brother & I that we should commit suicide if we get to the point where we can no longer take care of ourselves....My brother & sister have committed suicide..... I've learned over the years that having a physical illness can be an excellent time to work on our spiritual side....This is what I wanted so much for my father to experience....He has never had even a finger broken...I wanted him to see that there is so much more to life....Sure we have to go through the anger & denial stage but if we just end it all when the going gets tough I don't think we are really learning what we are supposed to learn while here this short while on Earth.... My father doesn't want me to know anything about his health because he's always been so nasty to me and others who have been ill.....I have managed to become friendly with his bridge partner from afar and this is my only source to possibly help me know what stage he's in.... She just told me that his hand was shaking and that he had to go into a hospital awhile back due to dizziness.....I never knew anything....I've been quickly trying my best to learn about this PD.....His wife has glaucoma and I feel very sure that he has something not so good on his mind.....In the meantime I'm reaching out to the suicide hotline for advice and I know that if I make one wrong move he will never speak to me again...... I don't know when he was diagnosed & I believe he is planning a trip out here so I think he is still able to hide it somewhat or so he thinks....I was wondering why his voice was so light and his face without any emotion and he is so parinoid.....I continue to just show as much support from afar as I can in hopes that he will convide in me.....I love my Dad and don't want him to do something drastic ...... Charlotte in San Diego ----- Original Message ----- From: "MICHAEL CASAGRANDE" <[log in to unmask]> To: <[log in to unmask]> Sent: Saturday, December 15, 2001 10:13 AM Subject: PWP - My father > Dear Carmen: > > Not at all, a very reasonable question. I am not seeking particular > knowledge about PD, but rather, general. Being afflicted with Wegener's > Granulomatosis, an autoimmune disorder, I joined as soon as possible a mail > list of those interested in this disorder. I quickly learned what a fine > resource an interested group such as this can be. When my father was > diagnosed with PD, I joined PIEN and am already gratified. I feel I will > know developments pretty much as they happen. > > Michael in Tampa > > Father is PWP > > [log in to unmask] > > > --- > Outgoing mail is certified Virus Free. > Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com). > Version: 6.0.307 / Virus Database: 168 - Release Date: 12/12/2001 > > ---------------------------------------------------------------------- > To sign-off Parkinsn send a message to: mailto:[log in to unmask] > In the body of the message put: signoff parkinsn ---------------------------------------------------------------------- To sign-off Parkinsn send a message to: mailto:[log in to unmask] In the body of the message put: signoff parkinsn