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Rick, Gosh, I can completely understand how you feel. I went through what you are going through just last year. First I gave up my corporate management position with a large southeastern grocery chain and went to a supervisory level position. I thought that by reducing my work load, level of stress, intensity of work, etc., that I could continue to work. But alas, even at that level my concentration, multi-tasking skill, etc. were just as bad....plus I was falling asleep at my desk. So, I completely stopped working at the end of October. My story is long, but suffice it to say that anyone who knows me and traveled through those months with me will tell you that I truly grieved. I grieved for the work I loved, and for the fact that I had worked by rear end off to get to that management position. It was a most painful year. I am ONLY 53 yrs old. Chin up....never give up and never give in, Carolyn Stephenson ----- Original Message ----- From: "Rick Hermann" <[log in to unmask]> To: <[log in to unmask]> Sent: Monday, February 11, 2002 5:39 PM Subject: keeping my job > Hello, > > I haven't been on the list for a while. I've been busy salvaging my > employment. After cutting back to 80% of full-time, which helped, I am now > giving up my management position. The primary reason I am doing > this--actually two main reasons--are, one, I was doing a lousy job > (confirmed by my year-end performance review) and, two, personnel issues are > the most emotionally draining and stressful aspect of the job. Amazingly, my > organization is accommodating me all the way, so I will still be able to > work and contribute. My biggest problem is fatigue and lethargy. > > Giving these things up is very difficult--all the stuff I've read about > downscaling at work creating feelings of failure and inadequacy, even shame, > are true! But I also know it is not only the right thing to do, I actually > have no choice but to be honest with myself and deal with the fact that I'm > less able to do parts of the job that used to come much more easily. That's > not to deny that it really sucks. > > I'm sure a lot of you have gone through similar. I also have plenty to be > grateful for: supportive employer, long-term disability policy, great > co-workers, wonderful family. > > Well, just checking in. Later, > > Rick > Bellingham, Washington > > ---------------------------------------------------------------------- > To sign-off Parkinsn send a message to: mailto:[log in to unmask] > In the body of the message put: signoff parkinsn ---------------------------------------------------------------------- To sign-off Parkinsn send a message to: mailto:[log in to unmask] In the body of the message put: signoff parkinsn