Dear Scott, I don't know how CA works, but when I applied for disability in the Texas Teachers system, I was first denied. I have an excellent PA-C that I go to for less serious illnesses, and she worked hard to put all my records together and to write a letter for an appeal. I got the disability but with the stipulation that I be reassessed each year. I just completed the paperwork again and found out Friday that I was approved to continue to receive disability and that the annual reassessment requirement was removed. I wouldn't have had to "prove" my disability had I been older. I am 46. I know the feelings that you are going through. I pushed to have a summer Algebra I program at our high school and felt like I had abandoned my coworkers. However, they quickly found someone to fill my shoes. My doctor stressed to me that taking care of oneself was a number one priority. If you don't take care of yourself, you can't take care of other things. It's a hard decision, but I will tell you that in my case, being able to rest and having less stress has given me more endurance and a much better quality of life. Hang in there and let me know how it all works out. --Katie ----- Original Message ----- From: "Scott Burnett" <[log in to unmask]> To: <[log in to unmask]> Sent: Wednesday, May 22, 2002 11:24 PM Subject: disability dilemma > I know just the feeling that Cathy has about disability. I'm currently > teaching in special education, supposedly in a learning handicapped 4th > grade class but it's worked out to be a behavior change class. Every > night I drag home and just pray I can make it through the next four > weeks. I've always worked and my career is a big part of "me," but the > last few nights I've been looking at the Cal. teacher retirement system > disability packet more and more seriously. I don't want to be a > quitter but like Cathy said, I'm not doing much of a job as it is. To > top it all off I'm feeling real low, and I just can't seem to get > started on the 1001 things I need to get done. I'm feeling guilty about > the disability thing because I convinced my boss to create a tech > position at another school and to purchase a bunch of equipment with the > idea that I'd be there to spearhead the program. That whole process > started over a year ago and now I don't know if I can pull it off. > Arghhh! Sometimes I think it would be nice to have a "wear indicator" > on us like tires have. You know, oh time to work part time, time to > apply for disability. > > ---------------------------------------------------------------------- > To sign-off Parkinsn send a message to: mailto:[log in to unmask] > In the body of the message put: signoff parkinsn > ---------------------------------------------------------------------- To sign-off Parkinsn send a message to: mailto:[log in to unmask] In the body of the message put: signoff parkinsn