Joan - I, as well as many others on the list - had no idea what you've been going through. You are always so reticent about discussing your own trials and tribulations, and now this!!. But the great light at the end of the tunnel is, that you finally have gotten some help, which you have probably needed all along. I'm thinking about your horrific withdrawals, and wonder if it isn't somewhat like what an alcoholic goes through when they try to quit drinking. Praise God, you had the stamina and determination to see it through. Bet your husband thinks he is married to a new woman. Best to you Joan, and believe me, I don't think anyone should accuse you of denigrating our list from the old days to now. I, also can see the difference. It almost feels like we are in the army with fear to smile, or write anything other than PD related items. Jo Ann ---------------------------------------------------------------------- To sign-off Parkinsn send a message to: mailto:[log in to unmask] In the body of the message put: signoff parkinsn