Dave, You don`t sound weak , but you do sound human. Things get real bad for all of us. Maybe your Doctor can suggest a group you can join or maybe an other doctor. We all need help ounce in a while. The best thing you have is your age. With so many people working on the problem a cure in bound to found before " the right age to have Parkinsons " comes. Keep the faith and your sense of humor. Hang tough Ted