Dear Nancy and Celia, After a heart attack and by-pass surgery I decided to retire at 55. I was English Dept. Chair and teaching Gifted 8th and Honors Eng.12th - the best year of my life. What a fool I was. I had had a second by-pass surgery and last year PD. The last few years of teaching I usually became weak and tired by afternoon - barely able to keep up with my honors class. Probably it was related to PD, but I didn't know it. I never should have quit so soon without even investigating disability. Now I get about 1000 instead of 3000 and am my wife's health insurance dependent. When you are ready, get all of the information about disability retirement and file for it FIRST. Do NOT apply for regular retirement until all of the paper work, appeals or anything else relating to your case has been clearly settled. If you were NOT successful, hang on as long as you can before you submit your request AGAIN. You can't imagine the regular allowance you will receive at age 48. I taught 26 years and was 55. Get help from your Union and the system itself. Set up conferences, etc. but BEWARE. Do not sign anything until you are absolutely sure what you are in for. Of course if you are wealthy, go sailing. Timing is everything. This year the state's retirement system joined with other government employee groups to offer a very good sounding Long Term Care Insurance Program. One of the reasons for possibly excluding a member of the system is PD. I was diagnosed last Oct. and received this announcement this June. I don't need help for any daily living activities. It will be interesting what they decide in my case. I will apply and appeal if necessary. Sounds like our symptons and medications are very similar. I take 3 Sinemet CR (25/100), 2 Eldepryl (5 mg each), and 3 Permax (only .375 total)-causes light headedness, low blood pressure "orthostatic hypertension" {with all of my experience, I can't spell!). But two major factors that distinguish us are age and sex. I hope we all have success coping with PD. Fortunately my wife, Glenyth - a Professor at a community college working with Learning Disable Students - is as they say "disgustingly healthy". Never even gets a cold. Never takes sick leave (one of those !). 48? I can't even begin to imagine what that must be like, 20 years ago with PD. With deep regard and best wishes to you both, Fred