Michael, Read the lyrics of your quoted John Lennon song. It's what this board is all about. Your letter makes me weep. I'm so sorry you've suffered so much pain in your life but that may make you more able to respond to the pain of others. It is clearly your decision as to whether or not you choose to stay but these are fine, caring, informed, struggling people who know in their souls the challenges you face. They, along with my mother and you, have much to teach and share. Hang in there and give your children the gift of learning courage and the ability to care. My prayers will be with you. Damn that war! Judith Guion