Hi everyone, I've been reading all your messages for several months, have added a few of my own, received a few personal messages, etc and just wanted to tell you how important this list is for patients and caregivers or family members. It gives us so much information and experiences that other people have, that it provides a sense of empowerment to each of us. I am convinced that this is essential in dealing with this disease. If we feel informed about treatment, learn from others experiences, and evaluate new therapies, we are less likely to feel victimized and more in control of our lives. I think everybody's greatest fear is the loss of control and the inability to care for oneself. Some of the recent stories on this list about elderly patients with poor medical care really touched me. We must prevent this from happening by being/staying involved and active in our own care. We cannot leave it totally up to the 'professionals'. They don't care about us as much as we have to care about ourselves. We cannot feel in control of our lives if we think we are only victims, and not able to lead as normal a life as possible. So far, my husband Stan and I have been able to do this most, but not all the time. We still travel (with wheelchair) and try to lead a normal life, with adjustments for PD when necessary. We feel in control of our lives, but still have down moments when we cry together. Next week we are traveling to Emory University in Atlanta for a consultation/evaluation for a Pallidotomy. Stan is very nervous about the possibility of surgery, but first we get information, and take it one step at a time! Wish us luck. Regards, Susan Hamburger ([log in to unmask])