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A little over a year ago I decided to find out what was wrong. When I was worried about visiting Kristen's parents because I was having trouble with forks, I did something about it. My family doctor said I couldn't possibly have two nerve disorders and refered me to a neurologist. The neuro was honest and said it was beyond his area of knowledge then refered me to a specialist in nerve disfunction. The second neuro asked me a lot of questions, all the while counting blinks (I did not know this at the time). He gave me some pills (sinemet) and scheduled some tests. I had had one of those tests before (EMG) and was not happy. Fourty eight hours later (give or take a few) Kristen said "welcome back". I thought she had lost it. My boss said "your smileing again, what happened?" I knew the world had gone bonkers. Then I got scared. Why? The shaking was gone, I had an excess amount of energy, and I no longer had to fight to sit upright. Two weeks later, the tests. The doctors and I were surprised. I could pick those silly little things and put them in the cup fairly easily. By anyone else's standards I failed the strength test. But two weeks earlier I could not have budged those weights. They took blood and saved the worst for last. Ever had an EMG? The second time around is no better. "Come back in two weeks", they said. Two weeks passed, the meds were begining to even out. "No new nerve damage, but you have Parkinsons. Add eldepryl to your meds and good luck." That's it? I've got a new problem and all you say is good luck? I'd heard of Parkinsons, but what is it? How long have I got? Time passes slowly when you don't know and are scared. But I had a new tool and new how to use it...the internet. I searched, and found out what I needed to know. First, that I have time. Next, I am not alone. And third, it's just another challange. I've basicly lived one day at a time most of my life and most of my life has been "how can I work around this?" So what's new? Hey, if I can float down a river (yes a real one with rapids) leaving my wheelchair behind, I can deal with this. So, almost a year later, thanks to some new friends (and some old ones) I'm getting a grip on things. I have a few more ups and downs then before, but things are begining to level out. Thanks.