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Dear Bill: I am CG for my wife 62/9 and have a continues problem in convincing her that life must go on after PD sets in. I won't bore you with all my details of her PD years let me only say that there is constant depression which has led to isolation and constant negative attitude. It of course effects the entire family and myself the most. The fact that you were able to find friends that helped you to get your life back is a gift. I wish you the best and hope your business venture will be successful. Henry Guttentag Bill Harrington wrote: > > First, I need to get something off my chest. I joined this group with > realistic expectations of contributing. Perhaps i was too verbose, > perhaps too brutally honest in describing what has happened to me. > I wasn't bragging or whining (or didnt intend to. So many things I've > asked the group''s opimion. For example exx > periences of those having palllidotomies, one side or both. My dream of > a cross country spr > speaking tour to raise fuun > funds and awareness. I asked g > oops) for honest opinions and got deafening silence. Yet we all seem > ready tto dip into our own pockets and shuffle around mumbling to > ourselves till we croak!! > I got this god-damned disease before I was thirty. I had everything > great wife and kids, house great job, money, friends. 10 years later, > I am waiting for divorce, I'm virtually bankrupt, living on HELLFARE > (not a typo) After 4 suicide attempts, turning 40 in a psyche ward, > I am struggling every day to prove I don't belong in an institution.. > You know whose to blame. Not PD > Not doctors, or my wife. ME. I'm to blame. Parkinson's is a horrible > diseased, but right from the start i've done everything wrong. THAT's > one of the main things I would tell people. The other thing I can do > is say, yes I've lost a lot of things, but look what I've found. > With the help of a wonderful brave and talented womam (with PD) and > her equally generous and kind husband, I've found a place for God within > my life that he has spared many times. I've discovered a joy in writing > poetry (for myself) that others seem to enjoy. My friend and I put > together an exhibit of her art and my writing and is has beem succesful > beyond our wildest dreams. We will sooon be publishing a portfolio of > our work to be followwed by a book. There is nothing we pd'rs cant do! > But my responses from this group so far don't confirm that , with the > exceeption of one wonderful lady in toronto, (Hi Lynda). > I'm sorry, if I've offended anyone, a writer writes in my case till he > drops. I do have some thoughts and questions about my own pallidotomy, > I will share in the future... > Bill