Greetings from Texas: First, a few comments from the last three day's postings: TO: Elizabeth Southwood Your story about the "six gentlemen" who visit you every day was delightful! I'm glad to see there are others who maintain their sense of humor while facing this horrid disease every minute of the day. I firmly believe that a good sense of humor can help you deal with most anything. Best wishes for continued laughs. TO: Kees Paap Hello! I'm a newcomer to the list (about four weeks). I found your update covering the last year to be extremely interesting.I also am very impressed at the amount of work you are doing on behalf of PWPs everywhere. Even in print, your optimism and high spirits are contageous. And any Parkie who can still play volleyball and table tennis gets my vote as a determined fighter. Please keep us updated on you and your activities. Best of luck from Texas. TO: Jefferson Harkins Good for you! I congratulate you for NOT accepting one doctor's opinion that "nothing could be done" for your father. You have discovered an important fact about doctors and the practice of medicine: Doctors do not know everything. If you don't believe you are receiving the care and attention you deserve, talk to another doctor. Hope the solutions the second doctor recommended will work for your father. TO: Brian Collins Thanks for your responses to my first messages. I really enjoy reading your postings. Your are very articulate and you appear to be very knowledgeable about the subject. (I guess if you've had PD for almost 20 years you would be.) I'm wondering how you tolerate Sinemet after taking it for 15+ years. How many mgs a day do you take? How often? Are you experiencing any bad side effects? Are you confined to your home and your computer or are you still able to move around the city where your live? Now for something current: When I introduced myself a few weeks ago, I told you I was a writer. I've been earning my living writing (news, advertising, public relations, business communications) for more than 30 years. After I was diagnosed with PD 5 1/2 years ago, I started writing novels and short stories in my spare time (No sales yet, but who knows? Maybe next year. I do have an agent in New York who's trying on my behalf.) I also try to submit free-lance pieces anywhere I can. Recently, I submitted a "guest column" to the Houston Chronicle about dealing with the Parkinson's monster. What do you know, they actually bought it! Paid me U.S. dollars. I submit the following for your reading pleasure--- not because it's that good, but as an example of the ways all of us can contribute to speading the word about PD. Whatever your talent or skill, try to put it to work in communicating to the masses messages about what we face. Be creative. You don't have to be a writer to communicate. By the way, this appeared on the front page of the Chronicle's Sunday Lifestyle section today. (reprinted from the Houston Chronicle, Sunday, November 17, 1996) PARKINSON'S CAN TURN LIFE TOPSY-TURVY by Stan Houston Billy Graham. Muhammad Ali. Janet Reno. Mike Driscoll. None of these people are my friends. None of them even know me. In fact, I'm not certain any of them have ever met each other, But the world-famous evangelist, the ex-heavyweight boxing champ, the U.S.attorney general, the Harris County Attorney and I have a common bond. We're all part of a fraternity no one wants to join. We have Parkinson's disease. Parkinson's is a brain disorder. Simply put, brain cells gradually stop producing the substance (dopamine) that carries signals controlling movement to other parts of the body. Reduced dopamine means limited signals. Eventually, you lose the ability to move without the aid of drugs. Unfortunately, the drugs often lose potency after several years of use. They also can produce severe side effects --- nausea, insomnia, depression and, in the later stages, wild uncontrollable movement of the head, arms and torso. Those of us who share this nightmarish neurological link often find our lives turned into a bad imitation of Lewis Carroll's Wonderland. Here, says the Mad Hatter, swallow this pill to stop those tremors. Sure, the White Rabbit chimes in, pop more drugs so your hands and legs will work. Say, the Jack of Spades muses as he waves his sword, how about a brain operation today to reverse those nasty side effects? Sometimes you wish the Queen of Hearts would put an end to it by yelling, "Off with his head!" But that would be too easy. Parkinson's disease is not fatal, just infuriating. It robs you of your independence, steals part of your future, and fights to turn your life into a three-ring circus of false normalcy, pill schedules and drug-induced depression. It becomes your consant companion, much like an older brother who follows you everywhere, reaching out every few minutes to smack you as a reminder of who's in control. But only if you let it. How do you live with a bully? You learn to compensate, to be flexible, to be patient. My Parkinson's companion moved in 5 1/2 years ago. I was resentful at first, preferring to live only with my wife (Shirley), my dog (Garp) and my book and video collections. But it behaved, acting benignly enough at first to lull me into a common early-years fantasy shared by many PWPs (People With Parkinson's).Hey, this isn't so bad, I told myself. Take a couple of pills three times a day and life goes on. I can deal with this. But I soon learned a difficult lesson. With my house guest, nothing stayed the same. Parkinson's is progressive, so my adversary's negative impact on me increased as the years passed. Any time I got cocky, thinking I'd discovered how to deal with my uninvited guest, it would throw something new at me. Much like Alice in Wonderland, PWPs must constantly employ their wits to outsmart their live-in adversary. Example: When you step out of bed one morning and fall face-first to the floor, you realize an adjustment is required. How does one shower, dress, eat breakfast and prepare for work when one can barely walk? You buy a walker, those three-sided contraptions you see 80+-year-olds pushing around in nursing homes. Sure, your're only 53, I told myself as I tossed my American Express card at the clerk in the medical supply store. You can push a walker around your home every morning until the day's first pills kick in. It's a small price for maintaining mobility. After a few years, you realize your entire life has changed. Even the little things. Not long ago, my first priority before leaving the house was to make certain my wallet and keys were securely stuffed inside my jeans pocket. Now? Who cares about credit cards and cash? Don't let me out the door without at least three emergency doses of pills. Eventually, you learn there's only one way to deal with this madness: acceptance. Treat the disease as you would any other aspect of your life, no more, no less. Don't let it overwhelm you, and above all don't let it change you. Recently, a close friend told me, "Parkinson's has become a part of you, but it hasn't become you." That, I believe, is a goal every PWP should adopt. But even with acceptance, fantasies about a return to a previous life struggle in our Parkinsonian brains like a mad man in a straitjacket. We accept our fate, but would still welcome a reprieve. The National Parkinson's Foundation spends millions every year on research. Their goal is to find a cure by the year 2000, a little more than three years away. Hurry, guys. I have a house guest who's overstayed his welcome. -30- Stan Houston ([log in to unmask])