Hi, I came across this in my travels and thought it would be of interest. I cannot vouch for the accuracy of the comments made; I guess its something we all need to make our own minds up about. But I do feel there are two sides to every story, and this is the other side to that sorry tale. Simon -------- To The Parkinson Community September 29,1996 Hello Everybody, this is Frank Williams former Executive Director of the American Parkinson Disease Association. I wanted very much to reach the Parkinson Community and I thought the best way is through the internet. You know, no matter how much you justify a wrong it is still wrong. No one knows better than me. Tomorrow I surrender to the Federal Medical Center in Lexington, Kentucky to start serving my 15 month sentence for embezzlement. So far all you have heard is that I embezzled because I thought I was underpaid, that is simply not true. For 12 years I worked very close with practically all of the Parkinson community, you became part of my extended family. I was with you every step of the way. I want you to know I still love and respect you all and pray every day for the cure. I miss you and the work I did for you. I will always remember all of you, the patients, the spouses, the caregivers, the coordinators, the doctors, and many others I have met along the way. I know in order to receive forgiveness, one must ask. I ask you now for your forgiveness. I must live with the fact that I embezzled funds, I will serve my time in prison and hopefully someday pay back or raise the money for Parkinsons research. There is something else that burdens my mind that I must set free. In 1988 the year I started to embezzle I began to get ill again four years after my second bypass operation in 1984. I truly felt my days or years were numbered, five years at the most. I knew I could still make a contribution to the Parkinson community and to continue to inspire and empower you to help yourselves and the community nationwide, even though I have to fight the executive committee every two months for important programs that I the chapters and centers were requesting. In 1988 the executive committee hired Paul Maestrone, brother-in-law of the president Mario Esposito and the senior vice president Salvatore Esposito at the time. Dr. Maestrone was a veterinarian working for a large drug company, the executive committee created a position for him "Director of Scientific and Medical Affairs", Paul took the place of the social worker. I felt at the time what we really needed was another social worker and an administrator. From that point on my job became I living hell. Paul would tell his brother-in-laws everything it was like working under a giant magnifying glass if a gave someone a personal day off I would hear it from the president, the whole office became on edge, he started to interfere with my job. Remember now, I was not only the so called executive director I handled all public relations. fund raising, grant writing, direct mail, special events, major donors and the wills and bequest program that will probably take APDA into the next century. In fact Paul was not liked by many people and that actually interfered with my work load. He threatened to fire coordinators, just because he didn't like them. I spent many wasted hours taking to our people who refused to speak to him. He would also speak down to people and we lost important support because of his actions. They hired Paul at $1,000 less than what I was getting paid, as a matter of fact they had to give me a big raise to maintain that difference. I know I got the raise because they had to keep me slightly above him. Every raise I received after that was not for merit it was just to keep me $1,000 a year above Paul. They gave Paul $250,000 of life insurance and I had $50,000, they said it cost too much for my insurance, they stated at one time that they would self insure me for $250,000 it was not in writing but I trusted them to do good by me, I found out later after my transplant that Mario Esposito told my wife that there would be no coverage. After all was said and done Paul was actually making more than me. In addition Paul would usually go against anything that I brought up to help the Parkinson community at the executive committee meetings. He would speak to the president before the meeting and set up against me. I had to fight so hard for all of our chapters and centers, good examples are Minnesota, Florida, Kansas City, California, etc. etc. etc. I could go on and on with examples but I think you get the drift. The executive committee didn't understand the problems of the parkinson community, for 12 years it was an uphill battle for me, and when Salvatore Esposito took over I became bitter and disgusted. For 12 years Sal never wanted our chapters to get anything, he felt all their funds should be sent to National office. I am sure in the wake of what has happened Sal is being very agreeable "Beware of the wolf in sheep's clothing". In 1988 thinking my days were numbered and knowing everyday I had to lie to the Parkinson community about how great our board of directors and executive committee were and feeling under appreciated and thinking to myself where could I go I began to embezzle I was wrong and I was not thinking clearly but I justified it everyday. I never thought I was taking from the Parkinson community, I always felt and made sure to raise more funds to make up for what I was taking and in doing that I justified it. Again I was wrong and I knew they would never give me what I deserved. I made millions and saved them hundreds of thousands of dollars but other people were more important in their eyes than I. The justification increased knowing that the president and the senior vice-president did their good deeds only for others to see and then blind folded them against their unethical and unfair acts. Super egotistical and paranoid they don't give a hoot about the parkinson community and instead of supporting me they became envious that I became the voice of APDA. They would change the minutes of the meetings to suit themselves. They trusted no one no even themselves. The feelings within me began to deteriorate it became a challenge to embezzle from people who trusted no one. They would turn board member against board member, staff member against staff member and play head games with me and the staff. Asking the same questions and looking for different answers. In the 12 years I worked there a donation was never made to APDA from a board member and or a executive committee member, except for three that lived on the west coast. I lied to many donors about this if Ralph Edwards or Morris Udall knew this fact they never would have been involved with APDA and that goes for many other prominent honorary board members, major donors, and volenteers. The Espositos never wanted any Parkinson patients on the board or at least not more than one they were afraid you would take over. The reason their are now parkinson regional representatives on the board is because of my actions, they knew it would be hard to have the kind of open election from the chapters they called for. I made up the election returns myself. Most of the executive board never realized the APDA truly belonged to the parkinson community and those who supported it. I remember back some two or three years ago the American Academy of Neurology meeting was held in San Diego, Calif. I was with Sal Esposito, Dr. Lieberman and some ten or so doctors, we went to dinner at a real fancy restaurant to honor one of the doctors, Mr. Esposito was so impressed with the restaurant that about six months later he left for California with a board member, the only real reason they went was to eat at this restaurant and play golf. They stopped in on the L.A. office unannounced and visited the president of the San Diego chapter to say hello. Things like this coupled with the heavy salaries of Paul Maestrone and two recently hired board members their is a waste of over $150,000 a year. I call it legal fraud. In addition no board member or executive committee member or spouse ever paid their way to APDA bi-annual conference. Air-hotel-food-golf and all the extras were paid from the APDA account. In 1994 the APDA had a golf tournament near Atlanta, Ga. not one board member or executive committee member paid their way, they attended cost free food, golf, lodging, and airfare. And get this the only people that paid for everything were the parkinson patients who attended. Because of this action they lost money on that event even with the grants we received for support. Also that painting that I was hawking at the last conference in Florida was a joke. They paid a board member $20,000 to do the painting and then contracted the board members agent to supply the lithos , reproductions and frames, we must have lost over $150,000. You should know that the golf tournament and painting was not my idea. I had advised against both. In early 1994 Dr. Lieberman and myself met in earnest with the National Parkinson Disease Foundation to set up merger talks between them and APDA. We really thought we were about to make history within the parkinson community. I can tell you the APDA didn't take these talks seriously and to my shock and dismay they ask me to pretend to the Parkinson community that we were serious about the merger. They had 5 or 6 costly meeting knowing all the time it was a facade. Only July 30, 1996 I was sentenced in Brooklyn Federal Court, Mr. Sal Esposito had the right to ask for a downward departure in my sentence. He didn't. Mr. Esposito said through the prosecutor that because I worked for a charity didn't make me charitable and that for the years I was there I did nothing more than my job. He knew that the life expectancy of a heart transplant person was 5 to 8 years. I had a heart transplant in 1991. He wanted the maximum sentence of 33 months which amounts to just about a life sentence for me. He didn't consider my wife Mary Ann or my children who also gave very much to the APDA. He forgot all I did for the Parkinson community. I have been holding a lot back over the last year and a half, their is much more I can say. All I know is that I did my best for the Parkinson community, the patients, caregivers, coordinators, chapters, centers and support groups. I do not think I will ever work so hard again. You all came first in my life sometime even before my family so I incorporated my family into yours, it worked well . There is so much more but I really cannot go on and on maybe someday I will write a book. Even though I justified the embezzlement in my mind, I feel remorse, but some how not as much remorse as I feel for misleading the parkinson community about APDA. I want to thank all of you who stood by me and to those who fled I understand. I really did not expect the support I got. I will now go on to the next step in life and I hope someday I will be able to again help people less fortunate than I. I enjoyed everyday with you all, and I still consider myself a lucky guy because I still have my family. I wish you health, happiness and the cure. Maybe now this letter will set me free. Very truly yours, Frank L. Williams P.S. Wrath and anger are hateful things and I was full of them. A man cannot nourish anger against his fellows and expect healing and cannot refuse mercy to his fellows yet seek forgiveness for his own sins.