Hi Don - Just read your message and wanted to say hello! In fact, I've enjoyed reading your messages ever since you joined the list. I think that you inspire a lot of people to look on the bright side. With so many problems, it's not surprising that you are depressed . . . please let your doctor know about this. There are at least 2 ways that the doctor can probably help you: anti-depression medication, or electro-convulsive therapy. My mother has been helped by both, but especially by the ECT. Please write and let me know how you are doing. Don't worry about the spelling -- we always get the message. Especially the IYQ, when we say it fast! Fondly, Mary Rack cg for mom 75/6 [log in to unmask] >i am lost as to hwu to answer but i spent 6months in hosp. for bowl trouble. most in icu. went in at 185 lb left at 100. eat at one end comes out the other. i have the record at the hosp. for the longest stay. 2yrs ago still have trouble. take a lot of diff med. been a pd for 25 yrs. getting tried of fighting any more. even after 8yrs i learnwd to walk with a cne. have elec. cart for any distance took up bouling and golf from my cart. just stand at the line a toss 8 lb ball. got 50 ha ha. so i tell every to try but i want to give up. cant help my self.am depressed as i owned my own buss. was 12 in town on cb but don,t how now. cant spell or do any elec things now. gusse i will quit. I.Y.Q. 73S