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Marling..... Your comment about sometimes feeling so alone with PD touched a chord within me. In reading whatcha said, I actually got a sudden insight.. one of those rare moments when something cloudy.... murky... becomes clear to me. It dawned on me that since I joined this virtual family, I no longer feel alone in having Parkinson's. This group has provided me with all the current information about the disease I could ever need. More than that tho, it's provided me with the opportunity to meet some truly wonderful individuals who I've come to value and care about. That said, I DO feel alone in the "real world," BECAUSE of the PD (not "with the" but 'because of the"). This "aloneness" is caused by two things.. 1. a grinding, profound fatigue from about 4 or 5 pm till mid-evening, and 2. more and more work is being dumped on me by MSN which has nothing to do with what I was hired for, and is totally related to programming - something not only have I never had an aptitude for nor an interest IN, but something that is physically difficult for me to do because it demands precise, tiny controlled movements with the mouse. Whatever free time I have had each day is often lost to the fatigue, or spinning my wheels trying to make heads and tails of this damn HTML programming, and all the related technical work which grows out of it. My mind SCREEEEEEAMS "I don't understand this!" It's not that I can't learn... but TO learn, I need someone teaching me who understands my physical and mental limitations due to PD... and THAT is asking a whole lot from Microsoft! (they DO know I have Parkinson's but none knows what the disease can do to a person). In this, I feel VERY alone. Thanks.. I needed to get this out in a NON-work environment.... I hadn't even realized that till now. Barb Mallut [log in to unmask] -----Original Message----- From: Parkinson's Information Exchange On Behalf Of Marling McReynolds Sent: Monday, June 09, 1997 9:36 AM To: Multiple recipients of list PARKINSN Subject: Re: Verse: "You can do it...." Marvin, Thank you. You may not believe it, but it feels good to know that others feel the same way I do. I have written some of the saddest poetry to myself because of PD. At times I feel so alone. don't forget how to laugh Marling [log in to unmask] (work) or [log in to unmask] --MAA17147.865886131/upsmot05--