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hi susan i hope you're not buried under the volume of my ramblings! i found that last article that i posted to be the clearest and the most detailed explanation of cd cd is very common in the general population [10% plus, i think] and much more so in parkies [over 50%, i think] probably because the imbalance in brain chemistry is very similar to get back to your messages; >Unfortunately, my mother is a defeated woman >who is very angry at being "chained" to a medicine regime this sounds to me like a classic cd/denial/anger situation but she is not 'defeated' at all she just needs the correct treatment to get her feeling brighter but she can't do it on her own it's not a matter of will power and 'pulling herself up by the bootstraps' >makes little effort to keep herself moving >or to help us help her get better results from her doctor this is classic 'paralysis of will' that i mentioned briefly when i compared it to feeling like i was trying to function in a vat of jello! dr. david burns describes it more professionally: "one of the most destructive aspects of depression is the way it paralyzes your will power. in its mildest form, you may simply procrastinate about doing a few odious chores. as your lack of motivation intensifies, virtually any activity appears to be so difficult that you become overwhelmed by the urge to do nothing. because you accomplish very little, you feel worse and worse. not only do you cut yourself off from your normal sources of stimulation and pleasure, but your lack of productivity aggravates your self-hatred, resulting in further isolation and incapacitation." >When I read the list I always applaud every time I read of s >omeone's fighting spirit. I can't help but wonder if my >mother's disease would progress more slowly if she actively >fought against it instead of assuming she is beaten already. if she is caught in the bio-chemical imbalance of cd she literally cannot fight [yet] in the same way that i can't walk when my pd meds kick out >My mother, who is my PWP, is an extremely private person. >She has never liked to discuss her affairs with anyone. gee, i can relate to this! [believe it or not] i've had a 'hermit' tendency all my life when it comes to dealing with negative emotions or assertiveness and i wouldn't be surprised if this is fairly common in women because of our brain-washing-staining about being 'feminine' and 'demure' and not aggressive i have found nothing so liberating as the truth my family kept a lot of secrets and i have consciously made the decision not to repeat that habit now, if someone asks me something i tell them period no secrets no hiding no shame no emotions to bury and fester [and they WILL fester sooner or later, if buried, guaranteed] it's taken me a lot of work to get here but the view is lovely! >the fact that she claims to be living "in a fog", >and occasional confusion on her part she isn't claiming to be in a fog she IS in a chemical fog i'm impressed that she can actually see it as a fog it took me a long time to figure out that what was happening to me wasn't the 'real me' when i'm in the fog my thinking processes start to fumble and logic is a struggle when i'm out of the fog i can hardly believe some of the things i had been having trouble with >My mom was dx 8 years ago at age 70. Her difficulties in function >have progressed at a very uneven rate. She will be fine for say 6 mos. >and then have a leap symptoms. this concerns me a bit pd tends to progress slowly and if there is a sudden change in symptoms i have to wonder what has triggered it if not a change in meds maybe a change in food/supplements/routine/environment/stress? something else? >I hesitate to interject yet another question at this point >since there are so many different things being discussed, >but I am going to give it a try anyway. and here's three loud cheers for you! the list sometimes gets a bit shall we say 'active' but persistence pays! i do hope all of this is a help to you and your mom my heart goes out to anyone suffering with cd needlessly please keep us up to date janet [log in to unmask]