Charlie You put in writing what Mel and I have been experiencing. He kept his office and secretary long after he couldn't go to the office. He just couldn't let go of the thought of closing down the office. It was such a part of his lifestyle. As for cognitive-Mel has lost much of that at times and I miss the communication we had. Yes, we are mourning too. I take antidepressants and he wants to ask for some when we see the ND tomorrow. Hate to add another pill esp. at this time trying to hang on to the Mirapex with all the side effects of change in meds. Thanks for your personal reflections, helps to know. Mary CG for Mel 76/11