(NOTE: THIS MESSAGE IS BEING SENT IN SEVERAL PARTS DUE TO COMPUTER PROBLEMS.) Dear List Members: I'm embarrassed and feeling extremely guilty. That's me, Stan the guilty writer from Texas. Guilty of disappearing from the list a few months ago without a word of explanation. Embarrassed that I would treat wonderful friends like that, and offering my apologies to all of you who have been so supportive. All I can do is ask for your understanding. I would like to offer a brief chronology of my life since April as a partial explanation of my disappearance.