Ivan, I'd bet you've always been (even prior to PD) a very Intense man. When you're happy, you're exhilerated; when you're angry, you're furious; when you're calm, you float; when you're sad (& let yourself feel it), you're quite heavy-hearted.........correct? Me, too. And many more of us, I'm sure. On the downside there's a great deal of emotional pain. But on the up side, it's the reason your writing is so powerful. And, wow.......the passion of our positive experiences.