hi sybersyblyings good one, ivan! i initially found it difficult to wrap my brain [quelle surprize!] around the idea that i had control over my emotional reactions to people/events we all yearn and stuggle for 'control' but somehow want to deny this one and only area where it truly is possible this silliness about porkinson's and parkinsimian's has made me think of an analogy when we are at the zoo observing the 'behaviours' of the co-tenants of this planet we do not react emotionally and negatively to, say, observing a squabble among the monkeys we don't feel guilt and fear that we may have somehow 'caused' the squabble we don't feel anger and frustration that one of the participants is being 'picked on' we don't feel self-righteous and smug that one of the participants is getting what she 'deserves' we don't feel thrilled and satisfied that an issue is 'finally' being debated we don't feel weary and impatient that they are having 'yet another squabble' we simply observe with whatever interest we 'choose' to apply --- as novices we think we're entirely responsible for the way people treat us i have long since learned that we are responsible only for the way we treat people rose lane --- yours in parkynsymyan's janet [log in to unmask]