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Stan, Looking back on my pallidotomy which was done in March of 1996, I was quite depressed after the surgery, very weepy and teary. I thought at the time that it was my disappointment in the amount of improvement I initially realized from the operation. Even though nobody had ever promised me a rose garden, my expectations were way too high. When I came home from Toronto, I refused to see people because my speech had been so negatively affected. However, this all passed within a couple of weeks. I began speech therapy which solved that problem and I came to accept the lower level of improvement that occurred and be grateful for the small gains I did make. Just getting rid of the dyskinesia was really worth the trip. I think also that I had to get past the feeling that I'd let down my friends by not living up to the tv image of pallidotomy recipients. I didn't require any drugs for depression as this feeling of beakness was relatively short in duration. I was dreadfully tired during recuperation but I think that is to be expected. Good luck. Joan Holliday [log in to unmask]