Jacob, you have hundreds of people here who understand what you are going through, some who envy you, because you are still young, and look good, others because you DO have a good chance to get cured, or have effective treatment. When it happens you will be glad you did not give up the fight. Life is certainly not always fair, but it often evens out if you try to roll with the punches. I have know a lot of girls, and women, who would not be my friend, or even spend time with me. It worked out in the end, I have been married 26 years to a wonderful woman, and have two great kids, but when I was dating I had my share of rejection, and often someone else's share! You have to just keep your attitude as positive as you can manage. If you haven't seen the movie "Shine", I reccommend it, it may change your outlook. Didn't mean to go on so long....Ken B