LOT OF LOVE I want to underline my appreciation for the Loving, caring words, reassuring guidance, and homey humor of The Group. I am continuing to leaf my way through correspondance, and forward any useful information to my brother and sister on the West Coast [California and Oregon]. I've come to realize that I don't really mind my mother's dementia so much. At least there is forward momentum in it, which I find far preferable to the fear and anxiety that come with body symptoms like "internal tremors". I would hate to see her yanked out of her own world, perhaps a fools paradise, to be returned to the harsh reality of a frozen, spastic, or otherwise dysfunctional physical context. When I had a mobile home in Davis, California I used to have a room mate every year to defray rent expenses; and they were usually foreign students in graduate or post-doc status. One room mate was a visiting Chinese Scholar from mainland China. He had first come to USA to help set up "internet" [at the time I had no idea what that was!], and was now working for his sponsoring faculty member and hoping to get his family out of China [which he did just before Tenamen Square]. Anyway, one of the reasons he chose to live with me is that he figured it would be an opportunity to improve his english pronunciation by simple contact with a westerner. What ended up happening instead, ... I learned to speak "broken-english". It actually works quite well! There's a mental simplicity that comes from eliminating all those unnecessary "connecting words". I am readily understood and make friends quickly at Chinese restaurants. The appropriate mimicking "body postures" become unconscious and second nature, accompanied by a lot of smiling. "Mirroring", as does Woody Allen's character "Zelig" seems to evoke spontaneous appreciation. Where I'm going is that some of this process is bound to be going on with Mom. We talk on the phone for extended periods of time and say ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! Names get mixed up. Images take flights of fancy! We join in and become a little bit of one another. So that's okay. "Primary Process" as the psychologists say. As one doctor said to my sister in law, advanced as she is with chronic Lyme Disease, "Dementia? You're going to Love it!" Not to minimize or deny the many real tragedys. But then again, Reality isn't all it's cracked up to be. I guess I can anticipate some big time flames from this post. It's all said with Love, Jonathan [log in to unmask]