Dear Don, I follow your messages quite a time now and I try to understand how you feel. How much I try, it is still impossible to feel your feelings so I don't know exactly what you're going through. I think that you are doing pretty well considering the information you gave about yourself. What caught my eye this morning, was how you signed your messages. Two lines : love of my life best meds for PD is Love & Hope I must have read it several times, but I never noticed it. Maybe I think more about that kind of things since the holy matrimony has made me a married man. But besides that I am a very lucky man. I found the love of my life and I agree with you, it makes life so much more living worth. The best meds for PD ? Love & Hope ? I agree with that partly. To my opinion there are more best meds, such as medicins and exercise. But love and hope are certainly a word in the list of best meds. Hope is one of the best because it gives one a goal to live to. Like you experienced your first L-dopa and your first agonist as a present from the future. Now we have Tasmar, Requip and Pamipexorole, to name a few products. Our future might be the meds they are testing now. With the Udall Bill we have new hope for finding the cure. Research is not just important for finding the cure, but it gives us meanwhile mental support to keep on going in life, to believe in the future. The future may change in present if we believe in it and help to get there. Don I think your signature is great! I wish you and the love of your life a very the best and pray for you both, for a happy life together. Warm greetings, Kees Paap 48/8 yrs/kick in sinemet 62.5mg/sinemet Cr 5x125mg/permax 4x1.0 mg