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hi janice you wrote: >Dear Friends of the Listserv -- I have been living with PD for 22 years, >I found out that I have advanced Osteoporosis two years ago, >and yesterday a doctor showed me the film of my CT Scan, >and I saw the mass (cyst, tumor) that is so large it fills up >most of the abdominal/pelvis area. yikes >I had been to my see my doctor four times >concerning my enlarged stomach (and incontinence) >and she brushed it off as a prolapsed bladder. how frustrating... i had gallstones for 7 years before they were correctly diagnosed the incorrect diagnoses included stress, ulcers, infectious hepatitis, and low self-esteem [!]... my father's throat cancer was misdiagnosed as 'just a small cold' for six months... which just goes to prove that we are all 'only' human even those medicos who might have been taught 'doctors as g-d, 101' >I am so angry >and I am scared of the surgery I must have >and if I also now have cancer. for whatever it may be worth, janice, at least now you know part of the answer to the puzzle in my experience not-knowing is far worse than reality the terrors that my mind can conjure up, if i allow it, can eclipse any puny hollywood special effects >Sometimes, life just doesn't seem fair. i don't think life is meant to be fair i think life is life as i may have said before i believe that we are here to learn and to love [as per m.scott peck and his 'road less traveled' books] he describes our life situation here on this beautiful planet thus: "...i defy you in your imagination to construct a more ideal environment for human learning than this life. it is a life filled with vicissitudes, uncertainty, and hard lessons. in our gloomier moments, life may seem like some sort of celestial boot camp." i also believe that the problems we are given are custom made for us because we especially need to learn whatever the lesson is inside sometimes just figuring out what the lesson is is the lesson in re the anaesthesia question i believe that the biggie is NO ! DEMEROL ! if you are taking selegiline/eldepryl/deprenyl you are not alone we are all here, janice, and we aren't going anywhere too quickly! with much love for you and yours your cyber-sis in beginner's boot-camp janet janet paterson 51/10 - sinemet/selegiline/prozac almonte/ontario/canada - [log in to unmask]