Dear Parkinson People, The imediate situation is this: My wife is telling me that I'm history....That sahe can't take it any more . She's going to put me in a nersing home Sell Stock, sell the house. What br0ought this on. you're asking? I was getting thru the night w/o calling out for help,[confusion, perceived weakness which I thought prevented me from making it to the bathroom toilet...fear of messing up the bed which did not happen....a couple of nights of this and she's kicking me out. The worst thing is that I get very loud and angry one time I ran at her sayings that I wanted to "Put a bullet thru her head. When I'm "On " I am generally the person that she knows is Paul. I've started going "On" and "off" one to 5 X/day.....Its getting to the point where I can't deal with my life.... When I'm "On" I'm slightly manic...most of my friends say its a-ok. What I WANT IS A WAY TO get thru the night better....Like when I have a prostrate gland like a 20 yr old, why do I have to pea so much? Why do I feel like I wired....a feeling that is hard to describe; a;; I can say is that it is in tollerable at times....some times I can make the spasoms go away by by certain breathing exercises. `I take meds 8X/day. 5:45, 8:00, 10:30, 1:00 pm, 3:15, 5:45pm, and 8:00pm. At these times I take two, 25/100 carbidopa/levidopa. At 5:45, 1:00 and 8:00pm I take mirapex 4.5mG./day. The neuro I'm using for Rx's doesn't seem to know what to do. Movemenrt t Problem: I have trouble "bending the knee" when I'm off and trying to walk somewhere. Bending the knee = lifting the leg when walking. I think I can't do it...but if I stop and deloiberatly concentrate on my left leg I CAN LIFT IT. At this point my wife calles me a demented liar. I was diag. in 1991 and I'm 65 . Paul