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Hi all, today was ok, tonite was bad.. for the first time I acknowledged the progression of my disease, I've been pushing my self really hard physically and emotionally, and today and tonight my body just screamed at me! you have pd, this is the way it is, my back aches, my hands shake, my legs are aching and I cant open this goddam container of blueberries or pull a gallon jug off the top shelf of the fridge ( too heavy) Everything else in my life is pretty fantastic! what is my problem? I am a successful artist working on a fabulous church mosaic intstallation, and getting paid for it. i live in paradise, and am relatively happy most of the time, what right do I have to bum out about this seemling minor ( to most casual observers) afffliction. they dont feel or see my whole insides shaking , they dont feel or see my lack of coordination, my fumbling hands, my fatigue , my aches, my toe curl. Tonite was bad but, tomorro will be better. thanks, by the way to all of you and also to the PWP dumpster gang site, it was like a having , well you all know what it's like to have you' all. with love as always from paradise, st john usvi lisa