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When we become aware of a problem, i.e. it is in the forefront of our thoughts, it may not be becoming worse, it's just that now, it stands out more. It's kind of like me and my speech problems. I am really a strange and unusual case, so you must remember to take this with a grain of salt. But immediately following the CO poisoning which resulted in the damage to the globus pallidus, I was unable to speak at all - all I could do was hum and mumble. Slowly, over a period of months, the ability to speak came back to me, just about as smooth and fluent as ever, but so soft as to be barely audible. Now, it seems that I have read so much P.D. literature, that my brain, too, cannot get the message to my tounge, and form the word that I want to say. This is soooo frustrating, I know; to know exactly what you want to say, but your mouth just will not form the words. As for the fatigue and tremor, I can only relate to the fatigue. It is something that all PWP must deal with, my friend. For me, simply existing takes so much energy, sometimes it seems that the trick is to keep breathing. Jacob (27,9)