jrager: Just read your welcome to Marilyn and found it to be very encouraging. As a care giver I have experienced a wide range of emotions, both simutaneously and separately from my hubby. Sometimes I think I still go into denial, especially when it all seems to overwhelming. Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of good times and we find that we really can enjoy life too. Carolyn CG Deon 15/58