Anonymous wrote; > I'm a retired aerospace executive, 64 yrs, diagnosed 2 years ago. > My retirement plan/(dream) has been destroyed by this terrible > disease. . . . On my scale of things, my life is a living Hell. . > . . In summary, from a man with everything to live for, I find > myself asking myself how much longer can I go on, and often my > nightly prayer is that I don't wake up." Certainly a tremendous loss. I agree with those here who point out that this sounds like depression. Whether it's a psychological reaction to the limitations imposed by PD or a chemical state induced by PD, it ought to be addressed - pills or therapy, whatever works. Has this been done? You say "... In my career, I worked prodigious hours with intense self-motivation . . ." A problem with depression is getting up the motivation to deal with it. It sounds like a challenge you have the ability to handle. Phil Tompkins Hoboken NJ 60/9