Dear Ron, Life may be a great gift, but death is the greatest gift of all. For it is in death where all this pain is taken away. And believe you me when I say that I do expect all of this pain to be taken from me. Was I that much of a sinner before P.D. that God felt he must inflict me with an illness as horrible as this one, for me to endure, in his name, and be saved? Perhaps. Jacob Drollinger