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Dear William: Thank you for the idea on the checks. With all the new medical bills I think I should but something on mine. I do apologize if the comment was somewhat harsh. I am still trying to get through the grief process. I'm angry, then sad, then denying it, or well you know the routine I'm sure. I have had my car for sale the last 2 weeks. We dropped the price Thursday and had at least 15 calls on the car. I came home from the next town over and started crying again. I don't want someone else to drive my car. I don't want to take the vanity plate off (has my nickname - Sparki). The one thing in my life that I was consistent about were the cars I loved (High performance) and driving them. Now I understand that there is something there for me to learn. I know I have the possibility of hurting someone else, and I couldn't bear the thought. It is just sometimes THIS DARN DISEASE is so hard to bear. I get discouraged but I then go back up the scale. Today is just a very Black/Blue Day. I did go to Tai Chi class and the excercise helps. I really love the instructor. She is great. I liken this PD to the commercial of the little boy, he wants to be a junkie when he grows up. I see that same little boy and a girl, they are saying oh I wanted a chronic disease when I grow up. I don't dwell on what caused the PD, because that can't help me now. The reactions from family and friends is amazing. Well, I'm going to go work on my jewelery for a while, relaxes me. You have a sunny day tomorrow You and yours. I will write again, but I will try to keep those outbursts here with me. Hugs to you Gina 47/7 mos.