hi hilary you wrote, in part: >This is very difficult for me to reply to, as it deals with stuff I >don't often let myself think about. ... If BUrt wouldn't have got >the cancer when he did, i don't know what I wouuld have done. >Maybe I would have left him, for the sake of the children. But >I couldn't abandon that poor sick man..... there are times when >I regard that cancer as a blessing - and that is one of the >hardest things I have ever had to say..... i believe that i am here to learn that every thing that happens to me is given to me to learn from that i am tested according to my abilities at the time that i have agreed to the curriculum somewhere in the past in my soul regarding a painful event/situation as a blessing thus can come easily to me if i let it because all of it painful or joyful is given to me to learn from to grow with i can receive joyful events with open arms i can receive painful events with open arms if i so choose learning how to make that choice is a tough one but do-able much love janet a new voice: http://www.newcountry.nu/pd/members/janet/index.htm 51/10 - almonte/ontario/canada - [log in to unmask] janet paterson