 |
 |
Dennis, I just got back from a convention in Kansas City and just read your post. I'm so glad my husband didn't delete it before I was able to read it. You expressed yourself so beautifully! I'm reposting it below just in case someone else didn't get the opportunity to read it. I believe we have a God who heals, but we don't always experience the healing ourselves or in the lives of our loved ones. It is then we have to just hold on, by faith, knowing that God loves us and sees what we are going through. I love to remind myself that even though we don't know what the future holds, we know Who holds the future! Blessings, Dennis Bev c/g; Murph PWP 56 /7 On Tue, 22 Sep 1998 08:18:55 +0800 Dennis Greene <[log in to unmask]> writes: >There is a old saying which states "be careful what you ask for - you >might >get it". This might almost be restated as "be careful what you say - >someone might think you mean it". A prime example of this was when I >was >told by one of my wife's relations that my PD was worse for my wife >than it >was for me, because "it is harder to watch someone you love suffer, >than to >suffer yourself". She meant well so I held back from saying "so you >would >rather Jo had the PD?" - which I know she didn't mean, but which was >the >unavoidable implication of what she actually said. > >Some time ago I fell into a similar trap. I found myself praying for >and >hoping for a personal miracle. I wanted to be free of PD and if >medical >science was going to take its time I wanted God to step in on my >behalf. >Friends joined in and things became pretty intense for a while. But I >found >myself becoming more and more uneasy. Eventually I identified some of >the >causes of my unease. They included a realisation that at some level I >didn't just want a miracle, I was expecting one, whilst on another >level I >knew that a miracle is , by definition, not something that happens >just >because you follow a set procedure or have faith enough. The >consequences >of pinning all my hopes on a miracle and then not getting one >terrified me. >I also started to feel that asking for a personal cure implied that I >believed that I was "owed" something, that for some reason I was >special and >more deserving of rescue than others who have this disease. That is >not how >I feel but it is the inescapable, even if unintended, implication of >what I >was saying and doing. > >Those realisations brought with them their own implications. Now I >pray >that medical science be guided to a cure that will benefit all of us - >and >on a personal level I ask that I be given the strength and courage to >hold >on until they get it right. > >Dennis > >+++++++++++++++++++++++++++ >Dennis Greene 48/11 > >"It is better to be a crystal and be broken, >Than to remain perfect like a tile upon the housetop." > >[log in to unmask] >http://members.networx.net.au/~dennisg/ >+++++++++++++++++++++++++++ >