Dear Don-- it made us sad to know you were feeling so discouraged--you are the number one role model for the list, and I surely hope you won't leave! Your courage and fighting spirit are an inspiration to us, even though sometimes you, like all PWPs , have times when the struggle seems too hard. That's OK, Don, you are allowed to be human and have bad days---but you are still right up there at the top of my list of heroes! I read your post to Peter, and he shares my wish that tomorrow you will feel better--he says, "Hang in there, Don." Don't give up on funding for research either--here is what Harold Jones just wrote: >Congress has apparently raised the NIH budget by 14 %. We haven't >yet heard if PD will have their share of the increase, but there is hope. And a few days ago, someone posted reports of new and exciting research underway. Don't give up hope! Peter and I wondered if you have told your wonderful and caring neuro (who actually makes home visits to you) how bad you are feeling now? Since you don't tell us about your meds, I don't know if you take antidepressants, as so many PWPs do, Peter included. They can help to help you see the light at the end of the tunnel. There are times when all of us have to "sit back and let someone do it for us"--and I know you have never been one to take that path easily......we all know about your patio, roof etc. and the other things you do around the house and yard. We remember that you crawled up and down a board to get to your basement! The person you are and what you have given to all of us on the list is a gift you give to all of us. It's OK to cry sometimes, and to tell us how bad you feel--it gives us a chance to tell you how WE feel about YOU---- WE "Y Q" !!! YOU HAVE JUST BEEN HUGGED by CAMILLA FLINTERMANN ,' \'-----'.. ,\ .~ ' - . <[log in to unmask]> ,' o |__ _| (#) _\ ''~-. ,' ,\ ,.-~-.' -., .'--~' / / } ' -..,/ / ,'___ :/ \ /''-.| ''-..'........ \ ; \ )-....| | ' ---...........-' ,' ', ,...... ,' ' ,/ ', ,' \ ,.- ' ', ',-~'' ; | ; /__ / /__ ) '-. )----~' \______/ http://www/newcountry.nu/pd/members/camilla/one.htm