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Dear Marling, Dennis, Barbs, et all: I have been wanting to jump into this conversation for several days now; so here goes another testimony according to Joan: My brain wholeheartedly agrees with you, Dennis. I have been very successful in controlling my anger & other unhealthy emotions, while being able to accept the fact that PD has changed my life, & aspirations; not ruined but changed. It seems that I do such a good job of coping & adjusting that when I get frustrated, and the anger begins to creep in and my heart gets fed up with always having to take meds & watching rather than doing, and it takes just one more comment from another mother about how sick of helping out at school or church they are when I'd gladly trade places with them, then the anger comes bubbling out along with self-pity and resentment & a host of other negative emotions & I blow my application for sainthood-again! This has happened only two or three times but each time, it catches me & my friends off guard: I rant & rage for a half hour and they listen & learn and then come the healing tears- from everyone and in a little while the catharsis is complete & I can get on with the business of acceptance & dealing! Sometimes, a "chick" movie helps: "Hope Floats" or "Beaches" -something which blatantly pushes all the right buttons & helps me just to get rid of some of the excess emotion that I have to carry around until I have to set it down-one way or another! The fact that we are able to even have this forum to set down our thoughts & feelings is a wonderful thing; to validate those feelings & to once again put our lives in perspective speaks volumes about the concern & the commitment that we all feel towards each other-are you with me, Don?-& makes me thankful that we can have each other. (will somebody say Amen?!) -- --- Joan Snyder (47/10/8) <[log in to unmask]> Peoria,IL "Do or do not. There is no try." Yoda http://www.newcountry.nu/pd/members/snyder/page1.htm