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Bill ,> What's to accept? Acceptance implies permanence. This stupid disease does >not allow any permanence. Once one accepts one thing, another damn thing >comes along. Meanwhile, there is discomfort and disability. Among other things, the chronic nature of PD, which you so graphically describe above, is part of what we have to accept. Once we accept that it is very much easier to deal with the grief (including fully justified bouts of anger) we periodically experience as each new sign of PD's progress manifest itself. There seems to be some weird idea among those who advocate anger as the motivation for fighting PD that 'acceptance' means accepting the status quo, rolling over and playing dead, leaving the fight to others. Nothing could be further from the truth. In my experience, only after I had stopped grieving because I had PD did I find myself spiritually/emotionally well enough to take a pro-active stand against PD. Now I fight PD with everything I have. I fight it from the moment I feel its oppressive weight pressing me into the bed in the morning until sleep finally overcomes the resistance of a stiff, unyielding body at night. I fight it on a personal level, refusing to bow to its dictates and I fight it, alongside many others, on a public level. I do not fight it because I am angry with it - just having it is justification enough. It is a terrible thing which does terrible things to people not least of all myself and those I love - why would I need to be angry to to fight such a thing? Fire needs fuel and oxygen to burn; anger does too, but with anger the angry person is the fuel and the cause of the anger is the oxygen. Most fires burn out when the fuel is reduced to nothing - there always seems to be plenty of oxygen. We need to experience our justified anger - and we need to move past it - and then, after taking a long hard look at the enemy we can come out fighting without loosing ourselves in the process. Dennis. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Dennis Greene 48/onset 32 /dx 37 "It is better to be a crystal and be broken, Than to be a perfect tile upon the housetop." [log in to unmask] http://members.networx.net.au/~dennisg/ +++++++++++++++++++++++++++ > > Anger is not always such a bad thing: >When someone refuses to do good on the basis of "principle," that makes me >angry. It is my hope that bitterness, or maybe worry, not anger, is >responsible for any damage. > >Regards, >WHH 55/19 >