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Dear Marling & all: You know that it's weird-I've been diagnosed with PD for over 8 years & sure that something was wrong for over 10 & in my head, I know that I have PD-it's a fact of my life, but now it gets crazy: Sometimes when I'm hurtling thru space, my balance gone and the sidewalk looking like it's gonna be my landing pad-I think ...no I actually expect my body to suddenly right itself and hear a voice say "Gotcha!" When this doesn't happen and I'm smashed into a wall (or whatever), I am momentarily dismayed that my little scenario didn't come to pass & then BFO (blinding flash of the obvious), it occurs to me that I'm loosing it! PD just doesn't fit in with the mental picture I have of myself and every so often I need a reality check to make sure that I'm firmly planted in the here & now! It's kinda like being 47-I'm still supposed to be 27! I still think, talk and act like I'm 27 but unfortunately, a long hard look in the mirror, hearing myself say stuff that I cannot believe comes out of my mouth, & my kids dressing up in my vintage jewelry & scarves & belts for Halloween bring me crashing down to reality. How can we ever get comfortable with this aging stuff & then with PD & then with all the other stuff? Maybe someday I'll grow up and not have these weird delusions about my age, my looks & my condition...maybe not!! -- --- Joan Snyder (47/10/8) <[log in to unmask]> Peoria,IL "Do or do not. There is no try." Yoda http://www.newcountry.nu/pd/members/snyder/page1.htm