I came very close not replying to this message at all, much less on the list...but Jim was honest enough to try to help, and I'll do the same. About 1 yr before I was finally diagnosed, my neurosurgeon strongly suggested I find out if I had any long term disability and how it worked etc. I called our personnel office, and after receiving assurances that everything would be kept confidential, asked for the information. I never got it, but beginning 3 days later I started receiving letters of reprimand from my boss. This is after 14 yrs of consistently being rated above average. I never did receive the information from my company, but I did get questions about my health from everyone above and some below my boss's level. Sorta strange. Another coincidence that just happened was that after a year of put downs in public, letters explaining why I was no good etc, a good friend of mine was elected to the State congress. After assisting my boss with giving him a report he wanted, within the last 2 weeks I'm a pretty good guy again...Phil, I really can't advise you since I don't know what I would do if I could do things again. According to ADA, legally they have to make every effort to keep you employed if that is your wish, but I have heard of a lot of ways pwp have been made so miserable they quit. As my boss told me 2 months ago, quote "stress makes that stuff worse doesn't it, and your job is real stressful. It will probably get more stressful. Have you considered taking early retirement for health reasons?" unquote I have 2 teen age boys who want to go to college, and am still paying for a house, their horses, trailers, trucks and other toys. If I am willing to really disturb their future, I could think about a medical, but I'm not. So far I've stuck it out, but the last year has not been a fun one, even not counting the pd. Bob [log in to unmask]