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hi all At 13:26 1999/02/18 -0500, lisa wrote: >hi guys, what a month it's been. I was off line for 2 weeks and came baCK >TO 849 MESSAGES, YIKES. > > anyone have any words of advice or encouragent for me? >I had a full blown breakdown , went over the edge and lost control why? holy moly, lisa! you ask WHY?? are you not allowed to 'lose control'? i suspect that 'having a full blown breakdown' might be a means of unloading tension, pain, stress, anger, grief it might be a safety valve it might be something to be grateful for the fact that you are back here reaching out asking and sharing speaks loud and clear to me of your strength and the start of your road to recovery >my dad's struggle with cancer >my impending divorce and subsequent loss of home and property not to >mention husband. (who now has a new girl friend) >getting dumped by current ( I was in deep love) boyfriend. >deep financial problems, >my own physical and dental and mental health.( I lost 8 lbs, i'm pretty >skinny) >a terminated pregnancy. >feelings of loss, failure and sadness. >i lost it, and now, 3 weeks later, I can almost make it through the day >with out crying. >I said and did some very crazy things that I regret, but too late now. the regret is the key the crazy things don't matter one whit no more >Now On top of it all, It took 3 days of phone calls to get some permax( >after it had already been ordered twice, supposedly) on tuesday i felt like >I just couldnt handle it anymore. How much can one person take at one >time. yikes! this is almost funny! with all you've been through suddenly a prescription goof-up is more than you can handle!!??!! duh!!! i'm not laughing at you lisa i'm laughing with you monty python would have a great time with this one in the [approximate] words of the king: you can knock me down stomp on my face scandal my name all over the place you can do anything that you want to do but uh uh honey lay offa my shoes don't you step on my blue suede shoes! >I've been praying and reading and trying to see the beauty >in life, but I just dont have a whole lot of positive energy >to muster up right now.... >please, please any words of encourgement, directions to good websites, >quotes, that anyone can share. my dear lisa you've been through so much but the key here is you got through your message is, in and of itself, the best example of courage and hope and spunkiness i have seen in a long time love janet janet paterson - 51 now /41 dx /37 onset - almonte/ontario/canada <http://www.newcountry.nu/pd/members/janet/index.htm> [log in to unmask]